Happy Sweet 16 Basil Lee!

What a day it was yesterday!

First off, I went to make my Passion card. $10 for 5 years, + free bag. HOW WORTH IT! Met Mindy there, then we made our way to Kallang Leisure Park. Ate there and finally, we went to ice skate! :) The gloves they're selling is starting to look weirder...I thought they used to sell those pretty pretty black colour normal kinds of gloves. Now? Durian or contraction gloves please.

Guess who we met there? Hahaha! Kevin Koh!!! What a small world?! He was with his VJ friends. Oh well..had a great time ice skating with Mindy!








Then..made her follow me go Bedok Food Centre, because I was craving for Cheng Teng. Omg, the best one you know.. K la, the best to me k. Went cold storage, cause she wanna hunt for food. Waited for her bus, then I went to look for Xue Min cause he didn't know how to go Basil's house. So..off we went to Basil's house for his Sweet 16 Birthday Party!

I was contemplating for a long time if I should go to his party or not, cause I scared there would be awkwardness... reached his house, and saw..Eric, Chow Lin, Shu Qi and few others..

Basil introduced me to his cousin, Issac who's same age as me. Cool, he's going MI same as Jessie! Quite a nice guy, almost the same like Basil. Well..Basil was the star of the night, so he had to entertain everyone. Didn't talk much to him. At least Shu Qi was there, and..there were Chow Lin, Matthew, Asaph they all too! Oh yeah..they were playing poker the whole time. So I spent most of my time either chit chatting with Shu Qi, or talking to Issac. Played some games with Basil's cousins. I admit I suck at dai di manz. I should learn some skills from Mindy the daidi queen!

Left his house after eating the cake. Thank goodness Chow Lin's father was coming to pick him up! It was already 11+pm. Taxis were no where in sight. I'm still surprised that Eric Leong stays in Pasir Ris. Zzz.. Thanks for the lift! :)

Btw..I learnt how to make popiah! K la, all the food were there alr. So all I had to do was put what I want and wrapped them up. First time...and it tasted sooo good! Basil's mum & grandma good cook manz! Btw..HIS SISTER IS SOOO FREAKING ADORABLE & PRETTY! Just like a princess..

Didn't get to take photo with the birthday boy, cause he was sooo busy running up and down.

This morning, I gotta drag myself out of bed this morning. I couldn't sleep last night.

Ate breakfast, then..we dropped brother off Harbourfront cause he was going Universal Studios for I dont know what. Anywayz, Mag bought the 3 of us gifts from Universal Studios!!! I can't wait to go there now! The entrance fee is cheaper compared to other Universal Stuidos! Can't wait! But..its gonna be so packed. Argh. I missed polaroids with Mag again, since she came yesterday and I wasn't at home. ): COME AGAIN SOON!

I realised I would be off to Genting in 2 weeks time! How soon. Anywayz, I wanna get out of Singapore next weekend. I can't take it here. First is the weather.. next, in Singapore, my mind just wanders off too much! I hope we go Bangkok next week, cause Dad wanna go the temple.

I'm waiting for time to pass now, cause we're gonna watch "Toothfairy" later!

Its awesome to have friends who can sing so well!

Its a habit already, for me to wake up after 11am. I don't like waking up late because I feel as if I've wasted the day already ): But..even if I wake up so early in the morning, I've got nothing to do since going out makes me spend money. Must well, coop myself at home!

So I got my butt out of the house. Accompanied my mum to Changi Airport to get my brother's pull up bar. His room's like a fitness corner la, seriously. Sit up bench, pull up bars, dumb bells. What else does it lack? A treadmill? Ate there, my lunch cum dinner. It seems like I'm starting to not feel hungry easily compared to last year, while mugging for O levels. I tend to eat a lot when I study. Oh well..I miss school, I honestly do. I want the feeling of going to school everyday, seeing your friends, catching up with each other instead of lazing around at home doing nothing but wasting electricity to surf the net.

The courses I wanna learn only starts 1 month from now. Does that mean I've got nothing to do in this 1 month?! I'll find stuffs to occupy myself with :)

Anyway... JOLYN TNG & SAMUEL sings well on youtube!

Jolyn:



Samuel:




GO GO GO EVERYONE SUPPORT THE BOTH OF THEM! THEY'RE AWESOME! YOU SHOULDN'T MISS THEIR VOICES! :D

I should hurry and get each of their signatures soon if not once they're famous, they might forget who Sheryl is ): Their voices are just sooooo good! They should go for those lessons now, then upgrade themselves! Definitely famous in the future! :)

Btw..I can't decide, to or not to tomorrow :|

“All the adversity I've had in my life, all my troubles and obstacles, have strengthened me... You may not realize it when it happens, but a kick in the teeth may be the best thing in the world for you.”
-Walt Disney

As days passes

Made ATM card this morning, then went supermarket to shop for fruits. I never knew it was fun shopping in a supermarket! Okay, maybe because its my first time spending such a long time in a supermarket, choosing fruits! Fun day @ the supermarket with Mum! Then went Popular to get some stuffs for sister, then went to NASS to pick her up.

Went home to take my bag, then off I went to Loyang Sec to see the guys playing! Oh sadly, Zi Yu transferred to another school already. No longer in CCHMS. He transferred to Fu Hua Sec already because he isn't doing well in his academics in cchms. Oh well...

Anyway, decided to learn Korean since there's no Jap elementary class on the days I want. So I'm going to learn Korean. Hahaha, a language I wanted to learn since I wonder how old. Yay, can't wait to start learning a new language! I went Loyang Point to check out on "Ossia Music School" for their guitar courses. I don't know if I should go that music school, or just learn at the community centre near my house!

I think I'll go learn @ the CC, since I don't think I'ld be taking exams. Leisure learning would be fine :)

 

"There's something that I feel I need to say 
But up till now I've always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out"
-Broken Hearted Girl (Beyonce)

The next phase

After filling up the appeal form @ SRJC, keying in all my details into the computer, and was about to take my queue number for the interview, I decided to forgo JC. It seemed like I was enlightened at the very last minute. Strange it seems, but seriously..I had a big problem deciding which subjects I wanna study. So yeap, I didn't regret the decisions I've made, I'm looking forward to study hard in Temasek Poly and get that top 5 or 10%! See you all in UNI okie dokie! :)

We went to the Vet today, because Harry's gonna get sterilized. If we don't, there's gonna be another batch of puppies again.

Oh yes..was supposed to play badminton with Yvette/Kev/Gordon this morning, but..I went to SRJC, so didn't turn up. Hahaha they came all the way from their home to Tampines to actually give in to me just this one time, but in the end I didn't turn up. Wasted trip. BUT BUT BUT..I met them @ 2.15pm, asked my mum to send me to Parkway to meet them for lunch :)

I don't know why, but I always feel extremely good meeting any of the MG-ers! Although we always don't know where to go next, cause we can never make a decision. How sad..I guess I won't be meeting them any sooner already, since all of them would be busy studying in their various JCs. I bet Hui Shan would most probably be working now, CH's working too. While Yi Xuan's busily studying her 1st 3 months in NP. Everyone's going to different schools again. We gotta meet up, though I know it would be a really long time from now, but I HOPE WE WOULD NEVER STOP CONTACTING EACH OTHER OKAY! Of course we won't! We kept contact since primary school, what's another few more years for us :)

I hope when we're older, we could have a sleepover @ someone's house! Hahaha! I don't know why, but I'm starting to miss all of you already ): It seemed like everyone's parting. Sigh..well..this is another phase of life, isn't it? Everyone gotta move on, I shouldn't stay stagnant either. What happened has already happened, I should look forward to what would be happening in future. I can't wait! :D I'm curious what I would become in the future, well..the future lies in my hands though...

Should I work, or...go pick up some courses? Learn a new skill/sport/language? I wanna learn Japanese now, since I've got loads of time. Learn Japanese, I should learn how to cook! Yes, I should. I wanna learn Tennis too. Why oh why..does everything looks fun, but because I gotta take care of myself, I can only dream to play those sports ):

NASS Boys Table Tennis tomorrow @ Loyang Sec! I'm going I'm going! Sadly, Mindy has work, then she can't go with me. They're playing against DHS & CCHMS! Oh..does that mean Zi Yu is playing with us? LOL! I SOOOOO GOTTA SEE IT!









Alright..I don't know why, but I feel lost.

“Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live.”

Blading with 1/2 MG

I woke up @ 7.15am for the first time since O Levels ended! Met Yvette, LD, Gordon & Kevin. The rest weren't able to make it, so yeah..by the time we made our way to ECP, it was close to noon time already. We were supposed to avoid the afternoon sun, in the end..we were suffering from the heat! My face is red now, and it feels tight and..you know, burnt kinda feeling :(

It was so fun blading after not blading for a very long time! Especially @ the Skate Park, where Yvette, Kev & I were playing catching in skates. I think I gotta blade more often, cause I'm starting to move slower. Met Wei Cong, Darren & Asaph there. They were cycling. Hahaha! Kinda shocked to see them there, cause I didn't expect anyone to be exercising too.

After blading, went to Katong Shopping Centre cause they wanted to play pool. Its actually our 1st time entering a pool place. I never wanna go in there again. I don't get why they have to on so little lights, for the atmosphere is it? Blue lights somemore..omg. Didn't like it, but they were playing anyway. Hahaha was so funny watching them play! Finally after playing for 1 hour, we left the place!!! Went to eat Mango Snow Ice @ Katong. Mango Snow Ice always tastes sooooo good! I think its the BEST dessert ever!

Decided not to go for class dinner, cause my head was on the verge of exploding. Seriously, it as pounding like mad. Headache. I was better already anyway, the minute I reached home :) Home sweeeeeet home!

We were planning to go play Badminton tomorrow, but..I've got facial @ 11.30am, and..Gordon wants to play @ 8am-10am, good thing its at Tamp sports hall! Oh well..dont think we would be going to play tomorrow though, since..its the posting results!

Pictures tomorrow!

Night :)

ShankJay

I was supposed to meet Shankar @ 2pm, but ended up meeting @ 3pm instead because I had to finish watching Episode 13 of "Hi My Sweetheart" but in the end, there's another episode after 13! Watched the preview & yay happy ending in the end! I love happy endings! I hope there's always a happy ending in everyone's life, but of course..like the show, there were many obstacles in between.

Anywayz, sat for hours in Mos Burgers catching up with each other. Talked about both our happy & sad moments in life :) Had a great laugh over certain things we talked about!

Shankar: You know..it kinda sucks if there's this really good guy who likes you, but you jus cant accept him because you've not gotten over the person whom you previously liked

Me: When do you intend to get married?
Shankar: As soon as possible

I dont know why, but his answer made me laugh like mad. The first time I heard someone telling me they wanna get married asap. Btw, Jason's answer is the same too! My gosh..whats with guys these days!?!?

Jason finally came after 4+pm with the bag he bought! Didn't believe the price, cause I always thought Jansport bag was around..$70+? Doesn't matter anyway, wait till 27th, then I'ld know if I need a school bag or not! :) I hope I NEED it!

After eating Mos Burgers, I went to eat my fav ice cream. Woah..I really do have a huge appetite! Well...good food, gotta eat them! :D Went to Subway after that, cause the guys wanna eat. Then, we talked and catched up a lot again :)

Really very happy for Jason who's progressing very well in his academics now! His results were so much better than most of us when we were in Sec 3! GOOD WORK JASON! :) You'll be able to get into where ever you want cause your results now, you can practically go anywhere you like! All the best for your O levels, & DO NOT DROP POA IF NOT I'LD START NAGGING AGAIN!

Walked aroung to find something Jason wants for .... :P Can't wait to help him see the things he wanna get again! Omg..his Valentines Day is definitely gonna be so sweet & good! What a weird year it is, Vday & CNY. HAHAHA! Oh well, both also Red, so very good!

I gotta sleep super early tonight, cause I gotta wake up at like 7+am since I'm meeting half of MG for early exercise tomorow @ ECP!

Hi My Sweetheart

I can't wait for "Hi My Sweetheart" episode 13! I think its one of the best Taiwan drama I've ever watched. Super good drama! Made me tear like mad.

I can't decide if I should go to my friend's birthday party or not..Zzz..I don't wanna feel awkward there. Hahahaha anyway...

"The amount of time you wanna forget someone you love, is the amount of time you like that person?"

Do you think this sentence makes sense? Saw it in the drama and my mind starting running wild again last night. I hope that isn't true although it does kinda makes sense. Aiyah, who cares.

Meeting Shankar for a little catch up @ Parkway tomorrow! It seemed like years that I actually have heart to heart talks with him. Oh well.. I think I'll upload the photos tomorrow when I've got the mood to do so.

27th Jan suddenly seems to be approaching really soon, I wonder where I would be posted to. Pray hard I get to where I really wanna go.

Night all, I should sleep early since I had been sleeping really lately. I hope I don't think about stuffs again but just...get in dreamland asap. NIGHT EARTH :)

Again

I am dead tired shopping with Kelvin @ Ion. I wasn't suppose to spent any $ today, but in the end I spent again..BUT the things I bought wasn't for me.

Bought shirt for Brother & Sister, & Basil's birthday present. K la, I bought something for myself too. HAHA!

Anywayz, girls are coming down to my house tomorrow + LD & Cal.

Wanted to upload some pictures, but blogger didn't allow me..

Okay, thanks to Eric Lim for sending me emo songs, my mood went from UP to DOWN.

Daybreakers

Watched "Daybreakers" with LD, Calvin, Mindy, Leslie & ZX.
Going out with Kevin to FEP tomorrow cause he wanna shop & since I've got nothing to do too.

I'm going to lie on my bed soon, to start thinking about stuffs again.

Night world.

The Mile Hi! Club

Facial lady today was telling me how bad my skin was..yes yes, I know its really bad. I didn't go for facial for 2 months since November because I hadn't had the time to go ): My face was getting itchy and hence redness. She knew I had been sleeping late and not drinking plenty of water. Just like what my mum said. Zz...now I gotta go back facial next week again, in order to save my face. I gotta stop touching my face, cause my hands are dirty.

So..I've decided to sleep before 12mn, & seriously...drink 8 glasses of water each day. I'm going to start tomorrow! I promised myself I gotta do that, if not my face wouldn't get any better.

Watched..

alone in the morning. Good show! :)

Ate @ WS with Mum&Sis, & I bought another book! So glad!


So its either I have a good impression on the lives of a flight attendant or not, after reading this book.. I'll see!

I'm so glad my friends & I are catching up with each other!!!

I hate waiting for results ya know? Like..27th, it doesn't seem to be approaching any sooner ):

Btw..I doubt I can go on a short getaway with Dad, cause he cancelled his Vietnam trip & instead, flying off to China again. Argh...Nvm nvm nvm..

"I could not ask for more than this time together,
I could not ask for more than this time with you,
Every prayer has been answered,
Every dream I have's come true,
Yeah right here in this moment,
Is right where I'm meant to be,
Here with you, Here with me. . . "
- I could not ask for more

Girlfriends

A day spent with girlfriends today! Our ultimate aim was to watch "The Blind Side" but..in the end, we were..all kinda broke.

We shopped @ FEP, got what we were looking for, then..walked over to Ion. Yay, I bought clothes and shoe! :) glad glad glad! Finally gotten something after cooping myself at home and not going out to shop!

We trained to 313, and ate our early dinner there. Bought what I want again, and..when we left the shop, I realised I was left with $12? Movie ticket $10. Jolyn was broke before Sara & I. Okay, actually..Sara wasn't broke. It was because Jo & I owed her $$ because she paid for us first!

We bought Mindy's present after nearly 3 months! We didn't know we would be buying her present today, so.. didn't bring enough $, hence..our reason to us being broke. Hahaha, but nvm there's always another day where we can meet up again!


(Mindy's dinner!)







"Sometimes goodbye's the only way"

Vanilla Twilight

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you.
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me.
I'd send a postcard to you dear,
'Cause I wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue.
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose in new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

A routine

Supposed to go to Alexandra today to get my laptop fixed since its still under warranty instead, there's this service that they'ld come down and either fix it or bring it back with them. Saved my time, but..I'm feeling extremely bored at home! Seriously..sometimes I envy those who are working, cause they get to go out and see the world, yet I've got to stay at home when..I've got no allowance during the holidays simply because there's no school and my mum knows that if I were to go out, I would keep asking her for lots of money, since I can't control when I'm out ):

Anywayz, I'm going out tomorrow, so...looking forward to it! Hahaha, at least beats me staying at home staring at my laptop trying to figure out what I should do for the rest of the day right.. Going out with Mindy, Sara & Jolyn tomorrow! We're going to watch "The Blind Side" I bet its gonna be a good movie, since the trailer was really touching and good! Newspaper ratings were good too! Way to go Sandra Bullock! Super pretty woman :)

I'm awaiting for Dad to come back home, to tell me if he'ld be free the upcoming days so we can have a short getaway! Out of Singapore! I just gotta get out of Singapore, because its too boring! No..actually its my life that's boring because I'm stuck at home doing nothing. So..going on a short trip, I get to splurge since if we're going to China/HK, the things there are CHEEEAPPPPP!

Bored me decided to post some pictures of Turkey and some..random pictures.

Btw, the puppies @ home are getting more and more playful! But..so cute watching them but I guess..the time's coming :(













Uncle Steven Tan son's wedding (Dec 09)





Puppies

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”
-Maria Robinson

Yoga?

Waiting for O level results made me very nervous and afraid. Choosing of 12 schools made me frustrated, confused and thought really hard for my future but in the end I still hadn't come to a conclusion on what I truly wanna be in the future. I wanted to be this..I wanted to be that. I just can't make up my mind!

After submitting my 12 choices, now..I gotta wait till 27th Jan to know our posting results. Another thing which makes me nervous, cause I really hope that I get to enter SRJC.

Although there's no Table Tennis in SR, but.. my brother's gf said that I might want to join Yoga as a CCA. Isn't it cool? A school having Yoga as a CCA? Hahaha! Unlikely, but its true! I guess if I got into SR, I would join Yoga, since it helps my back, and at the same time its not a sports cca whereby its really time consuming. Luckily they're school has a CCA that interests me, because I wanted to take up Yoga lessons. Doctor recommended to me. So glad their school has it! :)

I hope I'ld go to SR & get to meet my friends there! Hehe

Anywayz, I'm contemplating if I should leave Singapore next week for probably 4 days only, have a short trip with my Dad to China. From China, we can always take the ferry to Hong Kong or whatever. I just feel that I need a break off Sinagpore's stress. Have been feeling really stressed up this week already! Even my Grandma who came over to our house yesterday asked what happened to my face. Argh..

But..my Dad say if I wanna go, I can't sleep in the same Hotel Room as him. LOL. My Mum can't go with us cause she gotta send my sister to school & ya know..fetch her back home. As for my Brother? He can't take leave. How sad. He's working for like 3 months and is only given 2 and a half days of leave. Goodness. I guess he's going to tender his resignation soon anyway, he asked me to wait till he resign then the 3 of us leave together, but..I can't wait till so long! 27th's the posting results, and my Dad's leaving for Vietnam on 25th or..if he resign in February, we still can't go, cause its the peak period since CNY is coming soon! ):

So its either..I asked someone to follow us, my Grandma? But she won't want to shop shop shop with me, or..I don't know who else. OR...I sleep alone in 1 room. That's..I'm not prepared yet manz, I no guts la k.

Nvm, I'll figure it out somehow :)

Really love reading up on quotes!

"We're so busy watching out for what's just ahead of us that we don't take time to enjoy where we are”
- Calvin & Hobbes

(HAHAH! I tried the method Joyce taught me, THE PIC IS ULTRA HUGE! HAHAHA!)

The Spy Next Door

Finally, I made up my mind.

I gave up going into SAJC. You all might call me crazy, because SAJC's a good school, so many others wanna go in but they cant because of their score, yet I'm able to get in using Table Tennis. You may say, I'm given the opportunity to go into a good school, but chose not to. Instead, I put SRJC as my 1st choice. Well..I had my reasons to do so.

I know SAJC compared to SRJC is definitely a better school. A school with 99% single pointers. I didn't get a good L1R5, and hence I seriously do not have the courage to enter SAJC. A few reasons...

1.
If I go SAJC, I've got to really devote my time into Table Tennis, which means I've gotta train like mad although their trainings are quite slack, seriously. The teacher told us, if we got into SA through sports, you'ld spend a lot of time training and stuffs, and by the time you reach home, you'ld be totally drained out to even have the energy to study which means...you'ld have to forgo your weekends to even chill a little, because the weekends would be the time whereby you got to complete all your assignments and do some revision.

2.
If I go SAJC, I've got to stick to Table Tennis and given the condition of my back, I doubt I'm able to do so. My body has reached its limit, I know, cause I feel it. I might sound like I don't make any sense at all, but I'm serious. I don't think I can further strain my back by bending down anymore... sigh.. This is ultra depressing because I ♥ Table Tennis so much, although I've played it nearly my whole life. Now, I'm not able to play it anymore, how sad is that? My Family were telling me to stop playing already. Which is more important? Your health which is also your life, or...your interest? I played Table Tennis till I had to visit the doctor so frequently & spent more than a thousand already. I'm so sad..I might just play occasionally instead, but I doubt I've got the time to do it :(

3.
I heard that SAJC's teachers won't go the extra extra extra mile to help their students because, the people there are already smart enough to help themselves, and the school there I guess its kind of self-study? They're like smart alecs, what help would they even need?! I'm just scared okay, I'm a coward. I admit.

There are a few others, but it all just boils down to "I'm scared I might die halfway in SAJC, because the people here are way smarter than me since its a very good school, while I'm not a person who always excels in academics."

So in the end I chose SRJC after asking my Bro's girlfriend how the school was. I sms-ed my Bro but he didn't reply cause he was probably busily working his butt off being in boring HR department. HAHA! Sucha loser he is. Nah, actually..at least he's really working and earning his own $, while I'm a loser cause I've got no income. How sad.

Her O level results were good, and yet she chose SRJC. What a wonder. Then, I realised that its not the school that entirely matters, its individual. In the end, everyone's still competing for the Major A levels right? So what does it matter in which JC you go to? Probably the environment perhaps. But what I believe is...if the school isn't those superb school, the teachers would really help their students, and since I heard that SRJC has got good teachers! Why not then? :)

I'm glad I've finally made my choice. Oh guess what, I only put a JC as my 1st choice, while the subsequent ones are TP/SP/NP. But at least, I arranged them to the course which is REALISTICALLY INTERESTING to me.

Nvm, I just hope I get into SRJC! About the CCA, will think about it when I'm in there. PLEASE, SRJC RESERVE A SEAT THERE FOR ME! :D I'll promise to donate when you ask for donation to upgrade or something!

Well, I spent today with Mindy. I realised I seen her very often this week! Spending more time together before the start of school for the both of us, is GOOD. I gotta catch up with Sara & Jolyn & everyone though, we all gotta go out! Please promise me, that we WILL go out, and it ought to be SOON. I hope that you all still DO keep in contact when you 3 realise your dreams in TP! I hope that all 3 of you would get into the desire course you want to! I hope that we ALL, will keep in contact despite rain or shine. LOL, okay that sounded stupid. We watched "The Spy Next door" IT WAS GOOD! ♦♦♦♦♦ (I know its not a Star, but yah..whatever)

Come on..which Jackie Chan movie isn't good?!

To Mindy, I'm glad you chose what you wanted in the end, and not what you didn't like to do. Don't worry if you're not able to get into the course you want to, because you'ld always be able to appeal into it and even if you still don't get in, the 2nd choice was your second interest and its also what you're good in! Thats good, isn't it? You'll do well in those courses that you show keen interest in! I believe in you, so you gotta have complete faith in yourself too, alright girl? Hahaha this may sound really...corny but yeah. Thanks for calling me @ 1.am+ this morning, I reallyt thought who was soooo insane to call someone at that time! Its good that you called, and we talked over the phone for more than an hour! ♥ you.

I think I'm starting to type really longggggg post, but I ♥ it cause its fun typing so much, like what you wanna say.. but thats probably cause a lot are happening these few days.

I didn't go SAJC's training today, & "Captain" kept calling non-stop trying to psycho me to go SAJC, but nah..I've made up my mind already :)

I wish everyone got what they wanted in the end, and all work hard for it! Go people!

Daddy's finally coming home tomorrow afternoon after 1 week + !!! :)

"Sometimes it's the smallest decisions that can change your life forever"
- Keri Russell

I think I've decided...

I've decided. If I don't make it to any JCs thanks to Chemistry, I'm going to Temasek Poly's "Integrated Facility Management" I think I mentioned this already in the previous post, but I gotta say it again to let my mind be in peace. After IFM as my 3rd choice, I'll put either "Business Studies" or "Law & Management" as my 4th choice. Its according to my interest of courses in Poly :) So I won't regret on 27 Jan, when we know where we're posted to!

I've decided, to not pay $102.50 to review the Chemistry paper. Probably all these is destined. Its destined for me to not get an A for Chemistry even though how hard I worked for it :( I'll just accept that very fact that I gotten a C5 for Chemistry O Levels. Oh well, O levels isn't the end of the road. Moreover, Chemistry being a single subject, it shouldn't affect me anymore! Instead, just hope and pray that I'll get accepted into a JC for H2 Chemistry. I love Chemistry because its fun, so I shouldn't let such small setbacks bring me down :) I sound like I'm just trying to comfort myself, but nevermind..

I smsed Miss Tiong to ask for her opinion, she asked me to appeal into SAJC using Table-Tennis and the most important thing is to choose my subject combination. She said I shouldn't choose a subject which I show zero interest in and show study that for the sake of it. Yeap, I know that very well! I show keen interest in "China Studies (English)" I don't know why. I don't think its an easy subject, because my Brother say Gina & Indra takes that subject, and there are sbqs and essays. If I choose Geography, I only studied Elect Geog in NASS, and my Bro who studied Pure Geog, was already dying while studying Geog in JC. I wonder what would happen if I chose to study Geog. I might just go bang myself against the wall till I bleed to death.

I realised my posts these few days has been very lengthy..probably because of the happenings these few days. I've said this probably a billion times, but I REALLY HATE MAKING DECISIONS THAT MIGHT AFFECT YOUR FUTURE :'(

I've got no guts to submit my 12 choices. I've only thought about 5 choices. I got another 7 more to go.

Btw, I tried another route home from SAJC today. I mrt-ed to Kovan from Potong Pasir which is less than 5 mins, then I bus-ed home from Kovan which takes only proably 15-20mins! So much faster than training from..Pasir Ris>City Hall>Dhoby Gaut>Potong Pasir OR Pasir Ris>Outram Park>Potong Pasir. At least taking a bus there or back home, I get to sit and think better! :D

It just didn't seem true enough for me to believe

So I've finally decided on going to a JC. Although the course I saw on "Integrated Facility Managment" in TP was quite appealing.

At the end, everyone's still competing for a seat in a University right? I've been pondering between SAJC or SRJC. I really dont know where to go, because I still can't accept the fact that I obtained a C5 for Chemistry, when I worked so hard for it. I was aiming for an A at the least, & yet they gave me a C5. Was really depressed. Like I've been getting B in school, yet I got a C for O levels :( I should just go review it. $102 for it? Hah....

& I just checked SAJC's website, I could make it for all the subject requirements, except Chemistry! Don't talk about Biology, because I've got zero interest in studying further for that subject. I need at least a B3 and above for Chemistry to study H2. I heard that H1 Chemistry isn't really..useful somemore Chemistry is important in University, right? How sad.. Because of Chemistry, I'm thinking now if I should go SRJC instead. The only thing which kept me from not going SRJC was..there isn't any Table-Tennis there! Besides Table Tennis, I don't know what other CCAs to choose..follow my brother and join ODAC? He was super lame please, he asked me to join ODAC to continue his legacy...crap.

My Mum told me not to play Table Tennis anymore, because of my back. Imagine visiting the hospital nearly every month to do Physio. 1 Physio session for my case, takes about 10-15 mins, quite short duration, but you know how much? 10-15 mins costs $40-$50 but its quite okay since I don't go there every week, its a monthly thing.. besides Table Tennis, I really don't know what CCA! I enjoy playing table-tennis, its really fun! Love it a lot! :)

If my stupid C5 can't make it in to SAJC, I think I gotta take a trial test. I think it doesn't apply for SA only, but all JCs, since Chemistry is really an important subject yeah?

Btw, success story...to those who has the intention of giving up POA, please don't! Me, stopped having interest on POA ever since mid of Sec 3, and didn't really bother about it so had been getting like...F9 throughout my whole Sec 4. I even skipped POA Prelim Exam because I had no courage to take the paper simply cos I didn't study for it at all and had the intention of dropping it when Prelim was only..probably 1 month before O Lvls? In the end, I mugged like mad for POA because my Dad enlightened me to not give up. I really mugged like mad imagine you don't know anything at all, except some simple basic stuffs. Studied really hard for that few weeks after Prelim to O levels, like maybe going 2 months? I managed to get a B3! F9-B3. I was well, satisfied because my hard work paid off!

Another success story is..A Maths. Hehehe, something similar to my POA, I'm so glad I didn't drop it but instead put my heart and soul into it!

I'm just so freaking depressed over Chemistry dammit! I wanna fly to Cambridge and find their markers, I swear.

Dad extended his stay till this Saturday & by then I gotta submit my JAE form already!

I hate making decisions, we're only 16 going 17! Why do we have to decide for our future already?! Everytime people ask me, "What do you wanna be in the future?" I don't know how to answer them..

First of all, my dream's to travel around the globe but before travelling, I need $ and to get $, I gotta work! So what job? So I've been thinking of Air Stewardess, since you get to do your job and yet fulfil your dream at the same time! Isn't that killing 2 birds with 1 stone?

I really thought hard ya know, on the train I think, on the bus I think. I think about what 12 choices I wanna put, I think about my future. OMG, I swear thinking about all these is killing me!

Even now, I'm thinking if I should change my mind & go poly thanks to the stupid Chemistry grade! :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

A sweet message

I just received a message from my brother's gf, I think she's so sweet!
See what she said in the message, the moment I read it I felt like tearing up already!

"All the best for tomorrow's results. You can do it :) Hope you will get your desired grades. Know you're really nervous now, try to occupy your mind with other stuff. Go play kor kor's i touch games. Haha. Rest Well :) "

Thank you very much Mag! :)

My sis told me early afternoon that she got polaroid photos from Mag yesterday, cause Mag brought her polaroid to our house! Arghhh, come again please! I wanna take also!!! :D

I am not skilled to understand

I think I'm going to die by worrying over my results.

I'll just see how it goes and see where it would lead me to. I hope no matter what results I obtain, would not affect my future.

My Dad told me that all this examinations are merely papers only. What you study now, might not help you at all in the future. For example, my Dad has friends that studied for example Marine Life or whatever, in the end when they're out in the society, their jobs had nothing got to do with Marine or whatever.

Sometimes I wonder to myself, is persuaing a degree the ultimate goal in our lives? Everyone study so hard throughout their lives, because all wanna make it into University and after graduating from University, you'ld get a decent job, & get a decent amount of salary. Is that true? I don't know..I'm just so freaking nervous I talk weirdly.. and talk crap.

I really do respect and admire those people who screwed up their Education in life, and yet they're earning tons of money. Indeed Hardwork and Perserverance is still the most important thing right? I've seen my Dad working extremely hard to feed all 5 of us, + the many pets we have at home. My Dad always tells me, money doesn't come easy. Behind all these, lies hardwork. Its just that we don't see it. I'm so scared for my own future.

I've been building castles in the air, that I wanna be this and that to earn lots of $ so in the end I could retire early and travel round the globe. Well I bet thats everyone's dream huh? Retire, then travel around the world with your loved ones.

I guess I gotta really snap myself out of this fantasy and step back to reality, that nothing comes easy in life. Everyone worked hard to get what they want.

I need my Dad to help me calm my nerves now but he's not in SG ): I need Dad to tell me that what you study now doesn't determine your future. I'm so jealous that some people don't even have to worry about their studies because some of them seemed like they were born as smart alecs. They're just so freaking smart, and it seemed like nothing goes wrong in their lives. I do wonder sometimes to myself, if 1 day someone who has always been successful suddenly fails out of the blue. What would happen? Would the person suffer from a heart attack? Depression/Suicidal mode? Or..take it as an obstacle met in life and start afresh.

I think I need to count sheeps to sleep tonight.

All the best to everyone, I hope the results each and everyone of you gotten, are what you all have aimed for :)

With ♥,
Sheryl.

(I seriously don't know what crap I'm talking)